Strange thoughts.....

6 months ago i had never even dreamt that things can just change with me... Change sooo much that i would myself wonder..

Today morning i woke up, i had questions on my mind why? where? how? what?

I had a dream yesterday night i was back in my old life, life which was with me 6 months ago.... Where in i was working in a place where i knew most of the people... i was living in a place where i know people... I always had my friends,family around me... Whatever the situation was i had people whom i would look upon for support... In a word, may be i was in my best possible comfort zone....

I woke and that dream made me think of changes which have happened with my life... Everything changed... Now i am in a new place, working for a new company, new set of people around, new ways of work, new environment, on all that a new country on the whole... Everything is new, except me..

Its sometimes soo thrilling to be a part of new things... away from everything you knew always... But its life i guess.. You never would know what's on your plate until you get it....

This three months of my life is taught me a lot of things.... Its got me all new things, everything brand new as well as made me realize the value of what i had before... Its made me realize what i am missing in my life..... It has made me realize my own potential a lot of ways.....

I know i still have 26 more days to head back to my place... But the whole thought of me heading back, makes me smile..... :)

Fear...And Overcoming It....

Worst fear i had was being all alone and "FALLING ILL"... I always hated that feeling... Though i have fallen sick when i was alone in bangalore.. But end of day i used have my ambulance(anala) always around these days... Ambulance has supported Countless falls from bikes, fevers, colds, sprains, broken leg(:D:D).. Or someone around to atleast...
But this time.. Here we go, i had to face it all alone.. LITERALLY all alone in a hotel rooom...
Saturday was a bright day, celebrated sankranthi and came back home... i wasnt feeling soo great.. Somehow had a feeling i would fall sick... And it started on saturday night.... i couldnt sleep, whenever i tried to i had cough, cold and breathing issue... and i had to get up....
I finally forced myself to bed by 3 AM..... Sunday morning i was all halucinated... Cold, Cough, Fever.... Name it and i had it with me... I was totallly down.. all i could do was eat some bread, took medicine and hit the bed.. I was glad i had some antibiotics carried along with me... I started with it...
Yeah i took off from office for two days... All i remember about two days is getting up, eat bread,take tablets and sleep.... I really dont know how i could sleep soooooooooooo much.... but i am sure that helped me a lot.........
First day of my fever, i felt soooo bad... i just wanted to go home... at whatever cost.. all i wanted was to talk to my manager and ask him to send me back as sooon as possible.. :)

Then one day spoke maharshi shivi... He gave me the gyan on how fever behaves and what should be done... :D Then my thought process started working....
And slowly I kind of started enjoying this.. considered this as an experiment... considered this is a experience i wouldn't have got if i was back home... i would have never got a chance to feel soooo alone or sooo helpless....
One day i felt atleast i should have been around sindhu's place, could have bugged her to death.. Wish only i could... But that was something i couldn't do... :(
Anyways the whole of this experience got me a confidence on i can survive anything anywhere... :) Guess this is why its called you should enjoy when you have no other way out... :)
I am still in office with all the running nose stuff, but glad i am a lot better than what i was two days ago.... Felt like this is one more things to be remembered stuff.. I should remember this brave act of mine... ;) so blogged it....